Sorry my dear mum

I thought it was a good day for me. But actually birthday doesn't mean a good day.
When I'm Penang, my grandma will call me, greet and wish me. Summore she will cook me red boiled egg.
I didn't get it, for this year. Not even a call. This is the first strike I get. =(

The second strike. Is not others fault. Is completely my fault. This has killed and hunted down my mood again.
I received a call. With a sad tone.
She didn't scold me, because of my mistake.
But, I can heard that she was sad and I make she regret.
You know, the call bring me alot meaning.
Maybe I not the one you love most, but I do love you.
Just 0.1% of yours love given to me is enough. Because my love was 100% given to you.
When you are sad. Maybe I not around you. But I can feel it.
I'm now guilty with my "stupid", "careless" and "dumb" mistake.
My heart is deeply cold now.
My saliva is flavorless...
And keep turning on my brain... Repeating the scene.
My mistake...

I know sorry is useless, but I wish it can came out from my mouth and get into your ear.
There is the only way to solve the problem. Hope that I can solve it.
So that, my mum would get happy.

SORRY Mum... Sorry ... Promising no next time.
You are sad in this, I am pain in this.